QUICK ANNOUNCEMENT: Have decided not to continue with my vlog for the moment, with getting into streaming I have been thoroughily enjoying it and have decided to keep persuing that for the moment. Might return to the Vlog at a later night or just post Highlights from my stream of important moments.

I have been busy lately with having started streaming on Twitch, but I recently got back into doing some drawing and decided to reimagine one of my old drawings and create a character from it and want to use it in my streams as emotes and other things.


I started to reimagine this character to use in emotes after becoming Affiliate on Twitch and thought it would be cool to use and it would be fun getting back into drawing something a little different than normal. At the moment I only have one emote of him available and that's only for Tier 3 subscribers to which I have none, but I'm hoping once I get more subscribers I can get more uploaded for people to use in mine and others chats on Twitch and discord. I was also thinking of creating T-Shirt designs for a Twitch/TeeSpring store to sell.

You can check my Twitch channel out here: https://www.twitch.tv/smileygidget

I honestly don’t even know how to put into words what this year had been like for me and I know so many people have had their own struggles too.... this year will definitely be one that I will never forget and I’m sure a lot of people can say the same thing.

This year and it’s struggles have been such a emotional roller coaster from the isolation of Melbourne restrictions and working from home to the people I have loved who have left us this year, I still cry when I talk about them like my boy Zac who I miss dearly when I just want a fluffy hug but Izzy my girl has been by my side and my rock this year more than I ever though possible. My Nan who left us not so long ago and I miss so dearly that I still cry for often even though I know in my heart she’d be telling me to stop crying and be strong and to which I respond with “I’m trying Nan” every time, but to cry is not a weakness it’s a realisation that you need to let the emotion go, if I didn’t cry this year I would be a horrible pent up mess of so many emotions so I know it is better out than in.I never thought I would be dealing with these medical issues for another year either but here we are and now I know it could go on for much longer or even end up being something I deal with for life, this year and it’s crazy hasn’t made it such a focus point even though the pain is always there and constant it’s been easy to ignore with everything else happening...

There have been so many good things this year though, I found Twitch and with that I found one of the most supportive and loving communities I have been a part of in a long time, this year was my first year in years that I didn’t attend a convention or event of any kind and the twitch community have definitely helped to fill that void and give me the family that I have missed, I have made so many new and amazing friends and achieved goals I never would have thought to have such as starting to stream and becoming affiliate on twitch, making a little bit of money doing something that I thoroughly enjoy never crossed my mind before...

I hope that 2021 will be a better year, but then again for me the last two years have been especially hard even if I don’t think anything will top this year for the emotional struggles... our lives with Covid and this pandemic is not over yet and we just have to be prepared for whatever comes next, we have to remember to be safe and to not take things and people for granted.

You are all special people to me and I hope that as we say goodbye to 2020 we do so with people who are special to us be it in person or virtually, let enjoy life as much as we can right now. Love to you all, HAPPY NEW YEAR!

(Post copied from Facebook, but I really wanted to share it here too)

MERRY CHRISTMAS to every single one of you amazing people!!!!

This year has been a challenge for everyone and as we approach the end of the year we are all hoping that the year ahead will be better to us. Christmas time is suppose to be a joyous time, when people visit and spend time with their loved ones, for some this is the first time this year they have had the chance to spend time together, and for others they might be missing their families because they don't want to take the chance to see them or they are unable to due to restrictions.

I have mentioned it many times that this year has been a hard one with so many challenges and that we are all going through it together, however we are all having our own unique experiences as we go through it. My family tends to never actually celebrate Christmas on the day, one side tends to celebrate it before and the other afterwards but this year it all happened before the day, I don't really have an issue with it I just find the actual day a little depressing because other family members have partners and other families to go and see and then here I am on my own with my kitty for company. It's not terrible, sometimes it's nice to be on your own it just feels a little sad at this time of year.

Christmas was hard this year and I'm sure I'm not the only one to feel that, it has been a long yet short year with both sooo many things happening but also not a long happening at all, it's honestly just been such a bizzarre year but one thing it has been is EMOTIONAL. It's like you get to a point where you think you are okay and then something stupid happens but that one thing seems so much worse and it causes that dam to break and all your emotions to come running out... both Christmas celebrations this year I cried, but when it was with my Dad and some family I tried so hard to be strong and hold it all in I balled my eyes out before getting ready to go in hopes to get it out of the way before getting there but then I arrived and it all came crashing back again. I know I don't have to be strong and hold it in, but it hurts knowing that your crying is effecting and making others emotional around you, but I also know that sometimes you just need to let it out and I am a lot better with that concept than I used to be. Even if the celebration started with tears I still managed to have a great day with my family and that is what matters.

I hope everyone had a great Christmas day or Christmas celebrations, whether it was alone or spent with family or friends, as long as you were able to enjoy yourself that is all that really matters. I started my actual Christmas day in a stream, as I do scheduled streaming every Thursday night so it just happened to bleed into Christmas Day and it meant I got to do things I love, I got to entertain and make people smile and laugh whilst I had fun playing games, dressed in Christmas clothes and wearing different Christmas hats, some times it's the little things that make all the different and I'm so glad to have so many amazing friends. I also did a Christmas evening stream which was amazing I had a lot of fun playing games with friends, started with some Phasmophobia, then some Fall Guys and even a quick trip into Ark to see what Christmas presents my mate had left me there.

You can join my Discord and see some clips and highlights from my streams here: https://discord.gg/YvHc8xrw

We did the 12 Days of Christmas at work, thankfully with weekends and a day off I had enough Christmas shirts for almost every day.

QUICK ANNOUNCEMENT: I have decided to stop my Vlog for the moment and focus on Streaming, not sure if I will come back to it or not as I did not really have many viewers on my vlogs.

Hey everyone, I have posted a new Vlog... trying to keep to posting once a month, please check it out!

I have also started on a new adventure of Streaming, and Gaming... which I talk about in the above Vlog. You can find my new Twitch streaming channel and the Discord server I have created in my website menu bar, or at the following links:

I have only streamed twice so far and the first time was not recorded, so far the streams have included me playing games such as Among Us and Phasmophobia with mates and just having a good time. I do have many other ideas for streaming, but if you look at my discord server I also have a section for stream suggestions so please head on over and throw some of your ideas at me, and check out my Twtich stream to see me being my goofy self with other friends and playing games where I either get killed or kill people.

I have been enjoying watching the amazing Gigi Edgley and her daily Twitch streams lately, ever since we had to get Zac put down and a friend suggestion I join in watching one of Gigi's streams I was hooked. Gigi is amazing, such a lovely person and entertaining to watch on her live streams whether that's singing with her brother, commentating on Farscape or playing game - the gaming is the most hilarious!

This year has been a really hard and challenging one, not only for me but for eeryone, I have just had a lot of grief to deal with this year that on any normal day would throw me around but this year just feels so much harder, but I am so grateful I was introduced to this amazing community that is Gigi Edgley's Twitch Tribe. I felt welcomed and at home from the first stream I watched, everyone is so incredibly friendly and there for you if you need a friend or just someone to talk to. I am honoured and proud to be a part of this beautiful community.

Gigi is very grateful to her fans and those within her Twitch Tribe community, once a week each Tuesday for me but Monday for all my American friends, Gigi has a chat with different members of her tribe, asking questions and getting to know them, they can talk about their hobbies and interests and whats happening in their lives, pretty much anything Gigi feels like asking them about.

Last week I was chosen as the Tribe member and got to have a great chat with Gigi, we spoke about things that have been happening lately, my convention experiences including the times I have met Gigi (first time 2009), I shared my convention photos, my artwork and even my photography.

Check out my chat with Gigi below:

Check out Gigi on Twitch and joing the amazing Twitch Tribe.

I realised that it had been a very long time since I last added new photographs to my site, so I went through a collection of photos from the last five years and have added some of my absolute favourites. I hope that you like them, they are of a range of different things including animals, nature, planes and sunsets.


You may have also noticed some other changes to the website, mostly page changes to make the site easier to navigate and with information easily accessible. Hope you like the changes and if you have any feedback let me know.

For fun, here is a video that my brother sent me as he was going through some old family footage - This video is of 3 year old me perfectly summing up how we all feel about the current restrictions and it’s kinda adorably hilarious.

Goodbye my beautiful Nan, love you forever and always.

My tribute to my Nan as posted on Facebook 5th October 2020:

It's hard to put into words what I feel at the moment, my heart feels heavy and I feel a little bit lost, last week my family said goodbye to a beloved member my amazing and beautiful Nan. Such a kind soul who was strong, inspirational, loving, caring and warm with the most beautiful and welcoming smile, every single person who walked through the door of that house was welcomed as family and that always meant so much to me.

She graced this world with her presence for 96 years and I am so lucky to have had her in my life, she was always so special to me and I love that we had such a strong connection, I will cherish my memories of her forever. I miss her so much already, especially that smile, those warm comforting hugs, her text messages and her face as she watched out the window and waved you off every time you left the house after a visit. Thank you for everything Nan, I'll miss our conversations where I could talk to you about anything and everything. Love you forever Nan.

Rest In Peace Nan
Mona McLeod 11/07/1924 - 01/10/2020

This week was Birthday week, well at least one day of it was my birthday and although in these lockdown times there wasn’t really much celebrating I did manage to have a pretty good day. I got messages from friends, phone calls from family, presents/cards sent in the mail and even got a celebrity shout out by Gigi Edgley and a birthday song from her and her brother Jake - that was pretty special. I have recently been tuning in to Gigi's live videos on Twitch and it's been good to find something to enjoy and a fun new community to be a part of in the craziness that is the world at the moment.

Check out Gigi on Twitch: gigiedgleytv

Some birthday photos, cheeseboard lunch with my girl Izzy and my Chocolate Bavarian birthday dessert.

I wrote this blog post the week that the Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. finale aired, but the day it did air was the same day we said goodbye to Zac one of my cats and I couldn't bring myself to watch the episode or post this but here it is a couple of weeks later.

It’s been a while since I posted something about a show or fandom I am passionate about, but with the finale of Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. having aired this week and the lead up to it I felt the need. Maybe it’s got a lot to do with the current situation, being in lockdown leaving the house only once or twice a week due to restrictions and feeling trapped and exhausted but mostly emotional. I have only recently done a rewatch of Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. and without realising it happened to perfectly fall around the airing of the last episode of the show. This week in the lead up to the last episode the actors and social media for the show have been posting photos and videos relating to the show and it’s been making me feel a little emotional and I have cried more than expected.

I have watched and loved this show from the moment it started, I may not have watched all episodes as soon as they aired due to being in Australia but I watched when I could and I have always loved the characters, especially Melinda May who will always be my favourite Agent of S.H.I.E.L.D. and Ming-Na Wen is amazing. I really have loved this show, the anxious excitement waiting for a new episode and the intenseness when watching, even during a rewatch I sometimes still feel that intenseness, you just create a connection with the characters.

I have been thinking about how emotional I have been feeling this week and wondering how this is different to other shows I’ve been a fan of that have ended and I think that it means so much because it is the first show that I have watched from start to finish as it aired (basically) - with other favourite shows such as Red Dwarf, Stargate and Criminal Minds I never watched from their original air dates I got into them later on and became a fan then, especially Red Dwarf as I was 2 when it aired, also when I met Ming-Na Wen it was only 2014 after the first season had aired. Unlike my other fandoms I may not have made a lot of friends though it as I had stopped being as active on social media by then but in saying that a lot of the friends I already had were also fans so there were people to share my obsession with.

I will always remember going to see the first Avengers movie with a group of friends and when Loki killed Coulson a friend shouted out “F**k you, Whedon!!” and then as soon as I knew there would be a TV series I was going to watch it and enjoy it no matter what. When the first season aired I was so anxious for new episodes every week, and I loved May from the start because what’s not to love about a woman who is kickass but also battling her own demons, and a character who has a lot of emotion but doesn't really show it, but when you watch her you can definitely see it, I love that! And it's also common knowledge that I appreciate a good female character who can kickass!

Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. is an amazing show and it is sad to see it come to an end, but as the saying goes “All good things must come to an end”... this show will always be a favourite and like other favourites I will rewatch it often! I also have great reminders of this show and two of my most epic celebrity photos are with actors from it.


Sydney Supanova 2014

“Don’t ever call me the Calvary” - I wanted to meet her so much that I decided to fly up to Sydney for the event, straight from an overnight shift. It was definitely worth it, this photo has to be one of my all time favourites.


Melbourne Supanova 2018

Asking an actor to strangle you whilst giving them a piggy back makes an amazing photo, another of my top favourite photos and Elizabeth was such a gem.

Melbourne Supanova 2017

Asking an actor to strangle you whilst giving them a piggy back makes an amazing photo, another of my top favourite photos and Elizabeth was such a gem.

Thank you Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. for the entertainment the memories and to share in the family connection you all have. I wish everyone who worked on this show all the best for their future and future work.

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