MERRY CHRISTMAS to every single one of you amazing people!!!!

This year has been a challenge for everyone and as we approach the end of the year we are all hoping that the year ahead will be better to us. Christmas time is suppose to be a joyous time, when people visit and spend time with their loved ones, for some this is the first time this year they have had the chance to spend time together, and for others they might be missing their families because they don’t want to take the chance to see them or they are unable to due to restrictions.

I have mentioned it many times that this year has been a hard one with so many challenges and that we are all going through it together, however we are all having our own unique experiences as we go through it. My family tends to never actually celebrate Christmas on the day, one side tends to celebrate it before and the other afterwards but this year it all happened before the day, I don’t really have an issue with it I just find the actual day a little depressing because other family members have partners and other families to go and see and then here I am on my own with my kitty for company. It’s not terrible, sometimes it’s nice to be on your own it just feels a little sad at this time of year.

Christmas was hard this year and I’m sure I’m not the only one to feel that, it has been a long yet short year with both sooo many things happening but also not a long happening at all, it’s honestly just been such a bizzarre year but one thing it has been is EMOTIONAL. It’s like you get to a point where you think you are okay and then something stupid happens but that one thing seems so much worse and it causes that dam to break and all your emotions to come running out… both Christmas celebrations this year I cried, but when it was with my Dad and some family I tried so hard to be strong and hold it all in I balled my eyes out before getting ready to go in hopes to get it out of the way before getting there but then I arrived and it all came crashing back again. I know I don’t have to be strong and hold it in, but it hurts knowing that your crying is effecting and making others emotional around you, but I also know that sometimes you just need to let it out and I am a lot better with that concept than I used to be. Even if the celebration started with tears I still managed to have a great day with my family and that is what matters.

I hope everyone had a great Christmas day or Christmas celebrations, whether it was alone or spent with family or friends, as long as you were able to enjoy yourself that is all that really matters. I started my actual Christmas day in a stream, as I do scheduled streaming every Thursday night so it just happened to bleed into Christmas Day and it meant I got to do things I love, I got to entertain and make people smile and laugh whilst I had fun playing games, dressed in Christmas clothes and wearing different Christmas hats, some times it’s the little things that make all the different and I’m so glad to have so many amazing friends. I also did a Christmas evening stream which was amazing I had a lot of fun playing games with friends, started with some Phasmophobia, then some Fall Guys and even a quick trip into Ark to see what Christmas presents my mate had left me there.